Live like I am dying

There are odd things you think about when someone close to you is dying. One of the people I simply cannot live without is dying.....too soon, too young and too horribly. She has a list of things she wants to do before she dies. However, because of her situation she can't do the things like sky diving.

So a long time ago we were talking about the list. She turns around and asks me what would be on my list if I was dying. I'd thought about that kind of thing before and never really came up with anything. I have always found happiness to be a choice and something relatively simple.

Well shit.

Hasn't it been on my mind (off and on) for almost a year now!!

I don't have a list. I've been thinking about it a lot though. I suppose I could google the subject and steal shit from someone else's list. I remember years and years ago seeing a list of such things and thinking it was sensational. However, I don't want to do that.....you should feel free to though...haha.

The honest truth? I'm separated, soon to be divorced. I have said, since leaving him, that I do NOT want to get married again. It costs money to marry them and it costs money to get rid of their asses when you are done with them!! The truth though.....I would not want to die alone. I want to die with someone by my side (crap I hate it when my heart betrays my mind).

So now I hesitate to make a list.....what the hell else am I going to come up with?!

I know that things like sky diving likely wouldn't be on it. Even though I have thought about sky diving, it's not a must. It's like the condiment in a buffet....you can leave it out and still have a good meal.

Anyway, I'm going to try to come up with a list. Something that is ME! I wonder what would be on your list......imagine you have 2 terminal illnesses and they have said "______, you have about 3 years before you will be in long term care....and then who knows how much longer after that."

Make a list......show me.